From a young age, I struggled with the identity that was thrust on me, unwillingly the label ADHD.

 

 This medical diagnosis connected me to the idea that I needed to be medicated to function correctly and to be loved. Due to my high emotional intelligence living in a logical and performance-based society, I struggled greatly with understanding myself and cultivating intimate relationships with friends/family while simultaneously trying to find meaning and purpose.

 

I was terrified of failure and, as a result, decided to dissociate frequently, escaping into video games, alcohol, relationships, and anything that would keep me from having to face my inner pain.

 

Until I discovered LSD, which was the start of my inner empowerment, I realized from an Ego Death experience where I thought I was dying when I actively forgot about my ADHD and how broken I believed myself to be that I was still alive with a clear mind and had totally forgotten about my brokenness.

 

So this led me to realize that I wasn't broken and could be anyone I wanted to be. Unfortunately, this led to the opposite effect, where I developed a delusional sense of pride and considered myself better than everyone else. With the fuel from the constant use of LSD and even DMT, I developed a psychosis where I believed myself to be God.

 

Eventually, a series of events were thrust upon me, forcing me to introspect on my past's deepest pains and traumas. After a decade of psychosis and multiple trips to the hospital, rehab and near-death, I had only two options – to give in and go out with a bang or to relinquish control and realize that I was weak, vulnerable and more than susceptible to failure and disappointment, that I was genuinely Human. Still, I didn't find this out on my own; it took nearly falling off a cliff after a bad LSD trip to see that I could be killed.

 

 

Eventually, I met the Messiah, and my reality would be changed forever. Along that journey, I discovered that I needed to let go and become vulnerable, to begin looking at others as fully capable of taking care of themselves, to admit I was wrong about almost everything, and that the world isn't as unsafe as one thought, so I don’t have to feel like it's necessary to be aggressive and dominant.

 

 

 Now, that I’ve experienced my journey to self-actualization first hand, I’m ready to teach and coach others to take their own unique self- actualization journey, so they can be fulfilled in intimate relationships, feel balanced, and eventually obtain strong & intimate relationships, a career with purpose and knowing yourself on a deep level: realizing, owning, and accepting your strengths and weakness.